Went to Dr Lee's again, as scheduled. This time the progress and EDD seemed more reasonable. But it means my EDD is delayed by 1 week till 24th Dec and my first tri is 'stretched'. 1 more week of nausea...! Sigh...
The little thing in the sac is the baby. Yipee! I saw its heart beating away on the screen. Heart rate now is at 129. Dr says this is a young heartbeat, it will increase till over 140 moving forward. But old wives tale has it that heart rate lower than 140 is most likely a boy and over 140 is a gal. Hmm... let's see.
Went to office today and couldn't get the bulge on me out of my head. Maybe it's the dress, maybe it's my sensitivity, or maybe my baby bump is really starting to protrude. But I kept staring down to see if it's really obvious. I'm slim cut all along. And the bulge is just not me!!! I took a photo of my tummy at night, just so to mark the progress like what I did my in my first pregnancy, albeit only after 1st tri.
So conclusion. I think I'm bulging a bit. Hopefully it will not go too far beyond this cos I really wanna keep it a secret till 2nd tri!
Met my parents for weekly dinner. Went to IKEA. Had sent DD on a mission to tell my parents about the baby. But she refused. Said we were not supposed to tell anyone. Even though we told her my parents are not anyone, she still refused to budge. Then she wanted to play at IKEA indoor playground. So I bargain with her to be our messenger. She agreed finally. After her round, when we were walking to our dinner place, she popped the news that she is going to be a big sister soon. Didn't really hear how my parents reacted cos we were walking in front. But... :) Mission accomplished!
Then we brought her over to my pil's place. And we sent her on the same mission. She happily went up to my mil and told her she's gonna be a big sister soon! Mil was overjoyed! Yeah... 2nd Mission accomplished too!
Then I spill the beans to the other 2 gals in our gals chat. So all done in a day! Cool.....
DH said he will take the lead to tell DD about the baby. And I left it to him. He went 1 big round, took quite some time, got the gal bored and started fidgeting around, gave her a big scolding and still have not gotten the message across. Sigh!
But finally, I took over and told her outrightly that we are having a baby! Her face was a bewildered look! Think she did not register the news yet. I tried sometime later again. 'XX, you are gonna be a big sister soon!' Her response is 'Why?'. Ha, still not registered yet. Told her she cannot tell anybody our secret until July. She acknowledged. Not a lot of screaming and squealing or smiles from her about the news, but she seemed to be taking it in her stride.
I wanted to keep my 2nd pregnancy under wraps till after my see my baby's heartbeat. But tonight, mom put a big bowl of barley papaya soup in front of me. I couldn't resist but am not sure if it's safe to drink. For the sake of the soup, I went to pss pss to my mom if the soup is safe to drink during pregnancy cos I suspect I may be pregnant. Since I have not told DD, I had to send her to my dad with some silly questions so that I could talk to my mom alone. One hurdle crossed!
I finished dinner, same amount as DH. And got the worst nausea I had. Not ready to puke but it's all right at my throat. I so want to just dig and puke. Nearly wanted to puke twice. Wasn't OK for the whole night. I don't really feel like puking cos I'm afraid that will scare DD cos she have not been told about the baby yet. On the other hand, I so want to puke it out so that I can feel better. I don't know how I passed my night but I vowed never to eat like I used to eat before becoming a preggy. I will only eat 50% and stop.
Went to office in the morning feeling fine. But when I went to the loo, I saw darken urine when peeing. I can't ascertain what it is but when I wiped, there was blood! It's the kind of red blood that I get when I had my menses. I tried to stay calm and went back to my desk. But I couldn't focus, so I went again some time after, blood again. And a bit of clot! Although no pain, I thought I call Iris to check if I should go in, she said go. So I immediately messaged DH and prepared to go.
At the gynae, DH was still joking what if I have a fake positive. Naughty him! Finally when I went in, and did a scan... to my relieve I see a sac. That's the exact thing I saw when I was pregnant with XX. :) I couldn't stop beaming. Dr kept checking if I had given him a wrong LMP date cos the progress was 5days further along compared to calculating from my LMP. Then he checked my vagina. :( Don't like it but I had to go through it to check on the bleeding. So far so good it seem. Maybe it was the housework and walking that I had done yesterday. And the little one wants us to go take an earlier look at it!
Got a progesterone jab and some progesterone pills. And my trophy for the day! :)
Nothing today! 1 day of implantation bleeding yesterday it seem. Didn't they say implantation bleeding only comes before menses? Hmm...
I worried a bit as I saw my panties was stained. But I had also documented before that it happened in my first pregnancy. So I reckon it is just implantation bleeding finally being expelled from my womb. I feel no pain, just some trickles on and off and staining of my panties for a whole day today. Hopefully it will stop tomorrow.
Used various online pregnancy due date calculator, and all said I'm due end of Dec. I'm all ready to spread my legs and scream my head off again! Just don't know how to go through the stares and questions from my colleagues on my growing belly.
I felt shooting pains in my lower abdomen. But when I read through my Journal 1, I had researched before and it seemed like my pelvic is actually expanding to accommodate the pregnancy. So it seem normal.
Felt my breasts area's discomfort as well. Either it is reacting cos I ate papaya, or it's growing.
I'm at 4w+6 today, about 5 weeks. I have not made an appointment with Dr Lee. I think nothing could be showing yet. I'll probably make a call to Iris anyway, to find out when is the earliest I can visit to enable the scan to see at least a sac. Read up that heartbeat can be picked up as early as 6 weeks. I hope it is true. It will be exciting!!!
Contemplated whole night if I should take the test on Tuesday night or this morning. Probably afraid of a negative test, which will dampen my mood for a year-end baby totally.
I'm late for 4-6 days, and that's the latest I have experienced since at least 11 cycles before. My breasts were tender and a bit nauseous. It may be happening a 2nd time!
Finally, decided that to prevent a negative test cos there wasn't enough HCG in my urine cos I diluted it too much by drinking water throughout the day, I waited till this morning. Think I was really afraid of a false negative that I dreamt that my period came, and extremely heavy too! I gathered myself, read the instructions briefly so that I don't jump for joy for wrongly reading the test results.. and pee'd on the stick!
+VE....! And a very firm one. The instructions said wait a minute to read the results. But my +ve came in just about 3 secs. Solid downline showing a '+'!!! Hooray!!!!!
I'M PREGNANT AGAIN!!!!!
Left the stick on the sink for DH to see for himself while I smiled secretly to myself!
